I CERTAINLY DO!
Our trip was wonderful, but I still feel a little unsettled. There are many things going on that are discouraging, but even more things happening that are encouraging. Why am I having trouble focusing more on the positive?
This is what I am coming up with;
-I am not working to improve my conscious contact with God through prayer or giving my time to others. It is my unselfish walk on a daily basis that leaves me feeling close to God. I am not there right now.
-I feel overwhelmed and am not taking steps on a daily basis to chip away at what is on my plate. I am only doing what is urgent, not what is truly most important.
-I have not given any thought to my Prize over the last few days. This is extremely disappointing. The discipline I have exhibited for the last 6 months has been integral to my feeling successful. Now is when I either take a stand or get back on the rollercoaster I have been on all of my life.
I feel a little depressed, which makes it harder to attack these negative behaviours, but I won't stop feeling depressed without doing so. It is a vicious cycle that takes action to break.
Starting today;
-I will begin to work on a formal mission statement for myself. I know who I am and what I stand for, but I believe there is power in thoughtfully writing it down.
-Although I have done well with the one sweet per week, I have not done so well with having a well defined beginning and end to my meals. I will focus on that, as well as being grateful to have any food at all.
-On a daily basis I must think about my Prize and how much more satisfying it is to be fit than to indulge myself in food and laziness. Exercise and eating like a normal human being should will be my priorities.
Does anyone else feel like recommitting and making a push towards physical, spiritual and/or emotional growth growth with me right now? I could use the help and support. There is strength in numbers.
Thanks everyone.